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WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WIN AND LOSE AN AWARD - by Mr Biffo

15/5/2017

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So, it was the BAFTA awards last night. Congrats to Charlie Brooker's 2016 Wipe for deservedly winning Comedy Entertainment Programme. His mantlepiece must be bowing by now.

In light of this, I thought it might be of interest to some of you to talk about my own experience of being an awards nominee.

I'll try to make this as non-show-off-y as possible. I mean it sincerely when I say that getting an award, or being nominated for an award, mean very little to me in the grand scheme of things. I mean... it's nice and all, but I suppose I don't feel defined by my work, so that when I'm rewarded for it by the promise of a little statue, my reaction is "That's nice," rather than "I've made it! I am complete and whole at last!" 

I enjoy my job immensely, but I'd rather get an award for, I dunno, being a decent person. Please believe me when I say that's no false modesty. I'm more proud of the fact I've managed to sustain a career in an industry that's horrifically hard to get into, and even tougher to stay in - least of all to reach the top of (albeit with the caveat that kids' TV is a sort of microcosm of its own that is mostly ignored by the rest of the industry, and that I constantly worry about the work drying up, and going broke, and that).

Even then, I accept that the prolific work-rate which allowed me to collaborate with an enormous number of people, and produce a huge amount of writing - never missing a deadline - was, at least in the early days, driven by a need to distract myself, and by a pathological desire to get paid. The by-product of this is that I got a reputation in the industry of being fast and reliable, and managed to improve quite quickly. Put enough hours into anything and you git gud.

Plus, my natural instincts are more at the Found Footage/Digi-end of things, but this only gets you so far in TV. Suppressing those instincts, to write more commercially viable stuff that'll get me paid and lead to more work, is something I can do only up to a point - but it has, I suspect, resulted in a hybrid style that is just weird enough at times to be distinct. 

See? When you overthink stuff like that it's hard to really feel that anything is an achievement.
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BY-PRODUCT
Still, I realise that awards are one of those by-products of my job, which are slightly outside the norm. In
my experience, talking about it risks it looking like you're boasting, or can provoke jealousy in others - even close family and friends. That's partly down to the fetishisation of TV and film, how it's given greater weight - not least because of glamorous televised awards ceremonies - than, say, working in an office or driving a bus.

Truth is, if you want to get all anthropological about it, people who work in TV are the village storytellers, the bards - not the hunters and gatherers who are really supporting the tribe. Frankly, I'd be the first one tossed over the side of the balloon. And that's not just because I'd probably be the heaviest.

Nevertheless, having had the experience of going to posh telly awards, I thought it might be of interest to some of you to hear about it. While at the same time accepting that some people may mistake this as false modesty, or humble bragging. I thank my parents for keeping me grounded. When I told them about the first time I was nominated for a BAFTA, they replied "Oh" and changed the subject.

I've never won a BAFTA, despite being nominated three times. Well, despite having shows I've written nominated three times. That is... I was nominated for a Children's BAFTA, of course. As you may or may not be aware, there are several different BAFTA ceremonies, including those for video games, and - as mentioned above - for kids' TV.

PARTITIONED
I don't know if it's a good or bad thing that kids' telly is given its own event. On the one hand I worry that it kind of partitions kids TV away from the rest of the industry - signifying that it somehow isn't as important - while on the other, maybe it's so important that it has its own special ceremony.

It has changed a bit over the years, in that the first time I was nominated - for the CITV show My Parents Are Aliens - there was no category for best children's comedy. Consequently, My Parents Are Aliens was up for the drama award, and obviously didn't win. When I was nominated again, it was for 4 O'Clock Club, and that was put into the drama category again, despite being a comedy-drama. The third time, 4 O'Clock Club was put into the new comedy category, and lost out to Dick and Dom. 

The way it works is that TV companies won't ask BAFTA to judge an entire run of shows. Instead, they'll submit a single episode that's representative of a series as a whole. Then BAFTA members vote on which of the hundreds of episodes they like best, and the resulting shortlist is watched and debated over by a small panel of experts (who then vote in secret). Being an "expert" (ha ha), I've twice been a BAFTA panel judge - once for the BAFTA game awards, and once for the kids' awards (in the pre-school animation category).

Being chosen to be on that panel was possibly more of an honour than being nominated. Not least because I got to chat with Ian Eames, the creator of the iconic animations first used during Pink Floyd's 1973 Dark Side of the Moon tour.

With the BAFTAs, show nominations tend to be attributed to the writer, director and producer. This does rather negate the input of the cast (though they have their own categories), the rest of the crew, and - say - the executive producer. ​
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PANEL FOR?
While I may not have won a BAFTA, 4 O'Clock Club did win a Royal Television Society Award a couple of years ago, and I was at the ceremony to receive it.
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Though I've never been on a panel for the Royal Television Society Awards, I'm assuming it's a similar sort of process to BAFTA. The big difference, is that the RTS Awards include children's TV alongside all the other categories. When 4 O'Clock Club was nominated for the RTS, there were no names on the award aside from the title of the show. However, the executive producer - essentially 4OCC's showrunner - wasn't able to make it, and so I, as lead writer and co-creator, went along with the producer. 

The RTS is a bit more of a swanky do than the Kid's BAFTAs; I even had to rent a tux for the evening (but made a point of not shaving or brushing my hair). Though the kid's BAFTAs has had some top tier guests (usually there to be presenters) - I've brushed shoulders with such luminaries as Baby Spice, David Jason, John Landis, and Jedward (as well as personal heroes like Bernard Cribbins and Bagpuss creator Peter Firmin) - the RTS has pretty much everyone from TV Land in attendance.

It was surreal; every time I turned my head there'd be some famous face. A Les Dennis, or Claudia Winkleman, or Tom Hollander. Melvyn Bragg - there for a lifetime achievement award - actually said good night to me.

It was also awful.

I was nominated in the same category as a good friend of mine, and then I discovered I was sat at the same table as the people responsible for the other nominated show. It was kind of a lose-lose. Lose or win it would be awkward - not least because after smalltalk over dinner we'd clicked, and had enjoyed a very lovely chat. They even invited me to come and stay at their house in Scotland. Also my friend, I knew, really wanted to win. Whereas, I was just hoping that the food was going to be nice, and there'd be enough of it that I wouldn't need a kebab on the way home.

Not everyone is like me; I've seen first-hand that awards really matter to most people who are nominated. I've witnessed nominees storm out when they didn't win, I've seen the crushing defeat on their faces, so profoundly disappointed that they can't even hide it. I'd rather lose than risk inflicting this upon someone else.
ANXIETY
My other biggest anxiety in the run-up to any awards ceremony is to do with potentially having to make a speech. Actually, it's not the speech that bothers me, but just being in that spotlight. It probably circles back to the fear that making a speech could be read as grandstanding, or showing off. To win is for somebody else to lose, and why should anybody bother listening to some acceptance speech from me when - realistically - they're only really interested in whatever category they've been nominated for?

It's the ultimate "Shut-up and look at me! I'm better than you! LOL!"

​I've never written a speech, always working on the basis that I'm going to lose, and I'd leave the talking to somebody else. At the RTS Awards, the producer insisted that I had to give the speech - which rendered me nauseous for about half an hour, until word came around that the only people who were expected to make a speech were winning actors. They didn't want to hear from the likes of us. I was simultaneously relieved and a bit offended.

Then there's the sort of enforced networking and smalltalk, neither of which I particularly relish. Pre and post-ceremonies, I try to seek out people I've already worked with and cling to them, but inevitably I'll end up being introduced to somebody new, or be seated next to a stranger.

The last time I went to the BAFTAs I spent ten minutes talking to CBeebies icon Mr Bloom without realising his identity, then asked him what his job was. He took it well. I've had people badger me for work - something I'm not in any place to offer - and then there's the awkwardness of talking to somebody really famous, who knows you know who they are, but you have to pretend you don't. It must be awful for them.

​The last time I went to the BAFTAs I waited until the ceremony was over and went "to the toilet" - then legged it out of the exit, so that I didn't have to do any more smalltalk and networking. Frankly, how I've maintained a career is anybody's guess.
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THE PRODUCER OF 4 O'CLOCK CLUB AND A TRAMP
THIS IS MY MOMENT
You always pretty much know when your moment comes. Not only are the awards listed in the programme in the order they'll be presented, but moments before your table will be swarmed with cameras. Your face is then projected onto the stage as the results are called - something which, of course, I absolutely love (sarcasm).

Unlike the BAFTAs, where there's a different guest presenter for each award, at the RTS all the awards are all read out by the host - in the case of the ceremony I went to, it was John Sergeant.

Though I was stone-cold sober, it all happened in a bit of a blur; Sergeant read out the names of each of the nominees, along with a few nice words, and showed a clip of each.

Then he announced the winner, continuing to talk about the show as my producer and I leapt out of our chairs, and headed for the stage, By this point I wasn't even aware of being in a room full of real TV stars, and didn't even give second thought to the fact that Les Dennis was looking at me. I'm assuming there was applause - there had been for everyone else - but I didn't hear it.

I vaguely remember walking up the ramp to the stage, I took the award off of some RTS bigwig, shook his hand, and then we were ushered away to do a short interview on camera for the RTS website.

​We waited in a queue just behind Bear Grylls. I mumbled and stuttered my way through the interview - which may explain why it was never put online - then it was back to my seat, where I had to offer my commiserations to the other nominees on my table, reply to a congratulated text from my probably-gutted mate on the other side of the room, and send a message to our executive producer, who was equally gutted he hadn't been there.
THE BALANCE
On balance, I'd have probably rather won than lost. I mean, I'm not entirely devoid of pride, and I try to be the best I can at my job.

That said, I think much of my feeling comes from winning meaning I was able to avoid the social awkwardness of people commiserating with me as if I'd just seen my dog get fed into a woodchipper, and me not knowing whether to act like I was more disappointed than I actually was.

My main feeling was the same one I've had every time I've not won a BAFTA - relief that I didn't have to make a speech.

All this is of course entirely subjective. This is my experience of what it's like to be nominated, and to win or lose an award. I dunno where my attitude comes from, but it even extends to a distaste for things like GCSEs - that the worth of a child is measured, at an age when they're still in the process of becoming who they'll be, entirely by their ability to be good at maths or science or English.

I suppose I also feel uncomfortable with the idea that TV and film people are somehow held up as more important than everyone else. Maybe it comes from being on the receiving end of envy and jealousy, when I've always felt my job was just that - a job. I love writing, and I'm probably reasonably good at it, but it's by a quirk of chance and genetics. 

I could just as easily found myself as a librarian - a career path I genuinely considered at one point - and loved that job every bit as much. But, of course, they don't roll out the red carpet for librarians, and that rather wedges in my craw.

​Even if my RTS award is hidden behind a mirror in the front room (there's some symbolism for you, Dr Freud) I'm not knocking anyone who takes pride in receiving awards.

It's nice to get a bit of recognition, a pointer that you must be doing something right. I suppose, though, we all have different values, and what I truly value is that my job has meant that my kids had some cool experiences growing up, and there was always food on the table and a roof over their head.

Given a choice, though, between winning Best Kids' TV show in a given year and a free holiday in a radio competition, I'd take the latter every time.
FROM THE ARCHIVE:
I WAS A BAFTA GAMES JUDGE BY MR BIFFO
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FINDING MY FAVOURITE GAME BY MR BIFFO
THE POWER OF NOWSTALGIA by Mr Biffo 
32 Comments
RichardM
15/5/2017 11:48:02 am

Doesn't sound like you're bragging at all: it's interesting to hear about this sort of thing. A bit like the early Screenwipe stuff, when Charlie B explained how much of an arsehole it is making TV programmes with all the form filling and so on. Falling off a log in a park, if I remember rightly. More insights into interesting situations in the world of TV, please!

(Have you ever met Mr Tumble?)

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 12:37:07 pm

No, but I was on the table next to him at one of the BAFTA ceremonies a few years back...

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Chinny
15/5/2017 12:10:09 pm

Awards. Hate 'em.

Was up for an award about 15 years ago. A group of us. The big final award of the evening. Best in country type thing.

One of the judges was known to us and halfway through the evening came to find us. Told us despite being the entire judging panel thinking we were the best we hadn't won because some of the judges felt we didn't participate enough with the national body holding the awards, so the award would go to someone who 'played the game'. Put me right off for life.

At least for his part he told them if that was the way they wanted to run things he'd never take part again.

Also judged a kids awards thing for best video production . One group was by far and away the best and deserved the encouragement of winning. At the last moment the head teacher walked into the judging room and told he he felt that everyone should be a winner. We had to comply but I made a point of telling the kids who should have won that they were way ahead of the others and should look seriously at a career path in the industry. They needed encouraging FFS!

At the end of the day most of these awards are just shams designed to rake in cash for the organisers. tickets, 10 quid a pint at the bar, etc etc. I now turn down the chance to participate. Got nominated for something on Youtube and told them "sorry, not interested".

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 12:37:58 pm

Oh yeah - to even enter an award into BAFTA costs a bomb. The price for the tables - thankfully, I've always been a guest of the BBC - is extortionate.

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John Veness
15/5/2017 03:18:14 pm

This "everyone must be a winner" thing in schools really gets on my nerves. It is good for there to be competition! Luckily my daughter's primary school hasn't gone down that route so far.

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DEAN
16/5/2017 09:45:52 am

I dunno, John, that's pretty complex I think.

I did terribly at school at pretty much everything and was always last to be picked for the team etc. When I went to careers advice my maths tutor told me I should be a salesman because I'm a good talker. I walked in there wanting to talk about how I'd to be a marine biologist!

My best friend is an artist and could be considered a polymath. He also performed well enough at school to be seen as being bright enough to push a broom. A few years back he decided he'd like to get a degree and off he went to uni and cakewalked it.

At this point in life I have gained some insight into how people work and my take on it is that the most valuable asset anyone can have is confidence.

My point is why crush a child's confidence? What they're not really any good at will all come out in the wash but what we hope to create is a person with good posture ready to face the world and tear it a new one.

Jopijedd
15/5/2017 12:37:59 pm

I like this on a number of points, particularly the sentiments over testing children on maths and english. Perhaps exams are fair game at 16, but Mrs Jopijedd is current invigilating exams for year two kids - six and seven year olds, which is utter insanity.

Anyway, forget Charlie Brooker having a reinforced mantlepiece. Since Jopijunior came along we've been watching far too much Cbeebies together. There can't be many shows on there that Dave Ingham doesn't have a writing credit on. I also think you'd be a perfect writer for Bing, as most of the episodes of that have poo involved somewhere.

I'll also echo Chinny's view of awards ceremonies. I have a (now former) bus operator friend who was nominated at a national ceremony. His nomination included the offer of buying seats at a table for £35 and losing the award to one of the main sponsors of the awards. The vast majority of these things are bullpoo in a goldfish bowl.

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 12:38:54 pm

Oh yeah. Costs a bomb to enter a show into BAFTA, and then the tables themselves are extortionate to book. Thankfully, I've always been a guest of the BBC...

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John Veness
15/5/2017 03:16:48 pm

Also being a recent dad, I agree Biffo would be a great fit for CBeebies, although I imagine he would rather move older than younger from CBBC. Some of the CBeebies shows like Sarah & Duck in particular have a slightly surreal and faintly nostalgic vibe which does seem Biffo-esque.

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John
15/5/2017 06:07:11 pm

The Dave Ingham writing monopoly is weird.

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Super Sausage
15/5/2017 12:53:14 pm

When Found Footage is released, I think you'll find you have a lot of speeches to make.

In court, due to charges of being criminally insane, I mean.

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 02:16:59 pm

Wahey!

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King of Duckhenrys
15/5/2017 01:40:35 pm

Parents are funny when it comes to jobs and job achievements.

I've recently been offered a new job (god knows how I managed that with everything else going on). I've loathed my old job for years, and hated talking about it, but my parents always insisted on bringing it up whenever we talk. They always made a big deal about me "getting out of there".

So at the weekend I relished that I could tell them about the new job, which I'm quite excited about, and has some pretty cool benefits. But oh no, they weren't interested in any of that. No, all they kept asking me was about the old job, and how much notice I had to give, what the company said about me leaving, etc.

Awesome.

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Your mum and dad
15/5/2017 01:56:13 pm

They're just looking out for you and making sure the company will not be complete arseholes now you have left, which is very possible

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 02:18:20 pm

I think it's not that my mum and dad aren't supportive - I know they're proud of me - just that my life is so outside of their experience that they don't really know what to say or ask.

King of Duckhenrys
15/5/2017 11:24:22 pm

I know that they're happy for me, and that they care about me well-being. It is just really weird how it came out - that the focus was on the crap old job when the new one was really the topic of discussion. I've spoken to a few people about the job change, including siblings, and no-one else did this.

It's almost as though they didn't know how to deal with talking positively about work. Who knows.

Caravan Morrison
15/5/2017 01:54:18 pm

I've only ever won one award, the prestigious 'Biggest Berk in the Caravan' award (a tea towel wrapped around a clay magnet of a sheep), presented to me by my uncle for answering a question about fish incorrectly, when I loved fish.

The answer was 'Blenny'.

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John Veness
15/5/2017 02:29:57 pm

There's a couple of seconds of your RTS interview at
https://vimeo.com/123103354#t=196s

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 03:06:07 pm

Bloody hell. I've never seen that. How utterly alarming!

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John Veness
15/5/2017 03:09:26 pm

It was embedded from https://www.rts.org.uk/award/rts-programme-awards-2015 in case you're wondering how I found it.

Nick
15/5/2017 02:31:29 pm

I commend your magnanimity in both winning and losing.

I lost the flower arranging award at the village fete 2 years ago and still haven't let it go. The"winner" didn't even come from the village. They were just visiting. I know for a fact some of those flowers were not home grown. Harumph!!!

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Chinny
15/5/2017 02:48:44 pm

Sounds like Celine Dione at the 1988 Eurovision song contest all over again. Swiss my arse. She was a bloody ringer!

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Nick
15/5/2017 04:08:46 pm

Exactly. This is why I don't trust the Swiss or people from Duxford.

DEAN
15/5/2017 03:26:04 pm

I know what you mean. Kind of like being voted as the sexiest man alive in a magazine like Practical Poultry instead of something like Cross Stitch Gold.

What I'm saying is that I think winning an award for Found Footage would mean a lot more to you. More personal and that.

I won an award for eating my way through the Fatty Arbuckle's Belly Buster Challenge.
It didn't stop at consuming a LOT of steak; no! One also had to eat a load of tinned fruit cocktail over ice-cream. I hate fruit cocktail. I did it to (misguidedly) impress the ladies that were present but that misfired when I started gagging like I was being exorcised.
Anyway, I stood up on my chair like a sweating Adonis with food all down it and had my Polaroid taken for the wall.

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Mr Biffo
15/5/2017 03:34:35 pm

Yeah, I think I would get more from an award from Found Footage, because it has my DNA woven into it that much more. Plus, as well, I'd appreciate the exposure for it. Anything to get it to a wider audience.

Also: Fatty Arbuckle's? There used to be one of those near me. I wonder if it's the same people...

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RichardM
15/5/2017 03:57:00 pm

Yeah, I got an award at the mocked-up Cheers in Boston for eating their 'Norm Burger'. It wasn't even that hard. I'm sure there must be other competitive eaters amongst the Digi2000 comment gang?

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Kelvin Green link
15/5/2017 05:45:53 pm

I won a Blue Peter badge in 1986 for drawing a picture of a dinosaur. It hasn't changed me.

You wouldn't want a BAFTA, Biffster. I know someone with one of the computer game BAFTAs and they're much bigger and heavier in real life and they would make a dent in your coffee table.

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John
15/5/2017 06:04:37 pm

Mr Bloom looks nothing like Mr Bloom when he's not being Mr Bloom so I expect he is more than used to it. Its Andy / Fatima Whitbread that I feel sorry for.

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RichardM
15/5/2017 07:00:00 pm

I knew I couldn't be the only one who'd noticed the similarity...

Fair play to all those folk, they have a tough job smiling so hard all day and talking absolute guff. Their cheek muscles are like biceps. Guessing the pay isn't wonderful either.

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superfog
15/5/2017 06:53:36 pm

I was recently awarded the title of Lord Archduke of Pingu Land!

No one can take from me...

'cept Pingu

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colincidence link
15/5/2017 10:29:52 pm

There's a Librarian of the Year. I know because I'm not it (yet????)

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PeskyFletch
17/5/2017 07:05:58 pm

Shit, that is nothing. Leeds local authority does an aawrds ceremony for foster kids( And the child who coped best with all the fucked up trauma inflicted on them is......) They don't even all win, there are nominees ranging from like 10 to 30 people . My lad got nominated, lost to some poor kid who had been born with a load of health conditions and got upset about it (he was 7!). They should at least all win

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